Showing posts with label Serendipity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Serendipity. Show all posts

Wednesday, July 28

Or how I learned to stop worrying and love the bug

Today, Grandpa Hoggard and I walked down the stairs and into the garage, on our way to his parked car and the shadowy cave in which it sits, on our way to the roads that would lead us to Sharon's, his favorite cafe. "No other place like it around here," Grandpa told me twice, or thrice. The day was nice and hot, though later on it felt like the rain clouds hung heavy with expectancy. Grandpa drove about five or ten miles below the speed limit, the only one to take the "crazy" intersection at thirty-third (?) with calmness and consistency. Lately, life has felt a little bit like "Driving Ms. Daisy," which I've never watched. But it seems appropriate as Grandpa opens each door for me, waits for me to walk ahead, allows me to sit in the passenger seat in my wheel-happy body as he ambles down the street to our destination in his gray jumpsuit and his white car. Though I am not sure who is Ms. Daisy, and who is supposed to be the other guy. (which, now that I think of it, is a pretty interesting comparison) As I sat beside him in the car this morning, at around 10:30, he remarked on the snow still on the mountains, on Timp, how it must be almost spring (yes, he does know what month it is. He is a teaser and a joker.) and I sat with my chin almost resting on the side door of the car, watching the progress of an interesting insect. One second there was nothing, and the next a moderately-sized green bug, almost like a dragonfly, had landed on the outer-side of the window. At first, I was a little concerned that he had entered the car (I am assuming it was a he), but after the initial concern faded, I observed the pale sheen of green of his body, the two eyes that stuck out from his head, huge, round, and watchful. He looked, for some reason, like a little person squatting there, something about the placement of his legs. Almost entirely distracted by this familiar position, I barely noticed his almost ridiculously long abdomen, different shades of green, and his gossamer wings. He was beautiful. I am not a bug person. This was weird. I found myself checking for rips in his wings, an injury that would keep him on the car window. I wondered, is he resting from a long day of facing danger, is it the shade the car allows him, does he enjoy the feeling of flying without having to make his wings move? Suddenly, it seemed like he was watching me. Self-conscious, I turned my head from the window and tried not to look at the small creature who was barely holding onto the surface as we drove. "I'm not going to let you in, I'm not going to let you in," I thought defensively, turning my head away so he'd leave. I felt him observing, perceiving, through the reflection of the side-view mirror and it was with relief that I finally opened the door, hopped out, and walked with Grandpa to the door of Sharon's for a brunch-ish meal. When we got back, about an hour later, he was still perched on the little platform created by the mirror. When we pulled back into the garage, he had gone. He was a beautiful bug.

Saturday, September 5

A Heeled Chance Encounter

Yesterday, I got stitches on the back of my ankle*. After the events of the day transpired, mainly getting cut by the door and having a wonderful buffet lunch at an Indian restaurant on "Main Street," celebrating my sister's birthday, I realized that all I felt was angry. Angry with myself for wearing flip-flops instead of sneakers, angry with my doctor who had me sit there in the waiting room and then in the examining room for a long, long time, and angry with the back of my foot for not holding out as well as I thought it should. I now know that I shouldn't blame the back of my foot. He was just doing what the back-of-your-foots are supposed to do, you know? What was he supposed to do, anyway - use his brute strength to shield me from the heavy, dark-wood door? And the doctor, who was probably checking up on the kid the next room over, the cute, little one who'd been playing with the blocks for a while. How could I possibly be angry at him? He was kind, asked about our family, poured liquid all over my foot, and then sent us quickly to the plastic surgeon to get me stitched up. The doctor, he's a good guy. And the plastic surgeon, who looked tired and worn out and was ready for the Sabbath, but still made time to see us. The stitching wasn't so bad, but the numbing needles hurt like crazy and I couldn't stop myself from crying. I think I needed a cry, and I think that's okay. And so, I've decided that in my need to be angry instead of scared, that I was just angry that it was stupid. It was stupid that I caught my foot on the back of a door and needed stitches, stupid that it happened two weeks before our half-marathon, stupid that I didn't make the card for my sister's birthday before it happened. And you know? It was a real relief to know that all these people love me and that the doctors are trying their best to make sure I heal. And it was a blessing the cut didn't reach my Achilles tendon, which is, coincidentally, the same kind of blessing I got that the cut in my hand came so close to the artery but didn't hit it. The stitches are water-proof so my morning routine doesn't have to change, and the plastic surgeon says I'm ready to run if I want. So now I get to limp around a little bit, enjoy showing my friends my battle wound, and say, "Ah, yea, it was nothing," with a look of great courage on my face. I'm feeling prettty lucky. :) *I don't know why, but these last two posts have been about medically-related unhappiness and I am sorry.